Through the Eyes of the Blindman

It’s funny, how homesick I am right now. It’s nice to be out here, but at the same time, I miss home. Who doesn’t?

I look out into the Ohio skies, see the stars. I know it’s raining out there, but I wonder if you’re seeing the same thing I am.

I’m worried…

We live in a generation that takes the future so seriously. We’re always planning for it, waiting for it, thinking about it, dreaming about it, even imagining it that we forget about what’s right in front of us. 

What lies in wait for us in college?

What will happen if I do or don’t get this job?

Will I ever find true love?

I think it’s kinda funny… how we forget that the decisions we make now, today, in the present, effects what kind of future we could live in. I’m constantly told “live in the present” or “do what you can do today”. Do I always practice it? No, of course not, who doesn’t dream about what lies ahead of us? Just the thought is what sets off possibilities that are endless. Different chances, different times. But will it be the right time? Will the timing be right for all of it?

We’ll never know until then, so why focus on it now when you can take a step that will make it happen in the future. There are things in our lives that we will have to wait to live through, mainly because that is how our lives work, at least in this world. But there are so many things in our life that we can do now, that can not only give us a starting point now, but a goal, a plan, a marker, and even an end point in the future. 

So what am I ranting about exactly? The decisions you make now, will help determine the steps you make into the future. Even if, by some cosmic or heavenly reason, we had to relive our lives over and over and over again, and you had to redo everything you’ve done in your life repeatedly…

… make sure you do it right, the first time around…

Where does that take me? In a few hours, I will be heading to Ohio to continue on and finalize the dream we’ve had of making it to WGI world championships. In a few days, I will be competing in the University of Dayton Arena, dancing across the floor and tossing my equipment into the air. Finally a week from now, I will be returning home. Will we make it into semis? Will we make it into finals? Will I come home knowing I’ll be on a DVD? What crazy things can happen in Ohio?

I don’t know. There’s no way I can know now. So it’s time to make the only decision I can make to start this journey. 

I will make the decision to walk out that door, head up, with the idea of performing my heart out and being a champion. So that when I get there, and I step into that arena for the first time, I won’t have to decide then. 

It’s been a while since I’ve written on this thing… why not?

So I heard this song while we were warming up in the gym today. Some people probably know the song I’m talking about. It was kinda amazing watching Mitchell spin to this song because he through down so much emotion, even if he was just playing around. Still this song was something else. I’ve had it on repeat for nearly two hours now.

It gives me these chills…